I knew that I used food to entertain myself with boredom. I learned that I also used food to “give me energy” when tired. But it never dawned on me that I was using food to flatten out my life.
I read my first book by Geneen Roth and I absolutely loved it. Women Food and God was so good.
I was using food to buffer, flatten, stifle, muffle, deaden, shield, absorb, numb. Whatever word resonates with you. Stress, overwhelm, anxious, frustration, sadness, loneliness, grief. All my negative emotions were answered with food.
Which of course doesn’t solve anything. This only created more negative emotions of shame, guilt, disgust, frustration, unworthiness. Sound familiar?
So now what? How to stop the cycle? I’ve been working on this still. Recognizing the emotion has been the most beneficial. Learning to feel first before reacting creates awareness. I journal everyday to get the thoughts out of my head. Seeing it written down helps me create this awareness. Realizing that these emotions are just feelings created by my thoughts. And that my thoughts are optional.
Feeling overwhelmed by all the things on my to-do list today. Overwhelm is created by thinking that I’ll never get it all done. It’s not fair that I am the one that has to do it all. I recognize that this is useless. I am the only one creating my to-do list. I am choosing to feel overwhelmed. So I made my coffee, grabbed my iPad, decided to feel productive, and decided to knock one thing off my list. Caught up on my email. Thought download completed. Blog post almost done.
What emotions are you avoiding? Are you willing to decide that your thoughts are optional? What are choosing to think instead?
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